GOD'S MOST PRECIOUS GIFT, "CHANDLER" / SHARI, ANGEL MOM TO YANNICK WHITEHEAD (VISITOR)
I LOST MY SON AT AGE 16, 2005. I KNOW YOUR GRIEF. I PRAY THE WARM LOVELY MEMORIES YOU HAVE OF THE TRULY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL GIRL, HELP TO MEND YOUR BROKEN HEART. GOD BLESS!
IN MEMORY OF CHANDLER;
SHE LEFT US SO SUDDENLY JUST WHEN HER LIFE WAS BRIGHTEST JUST WHEN HER YEARS WERE BEST SHE LEFT US SUCH WONDERFUL MEMORIES WE ARE PROUD TO POSSESS. NO LONGER IN OUR LIVES TO SHARE BUT IN OUR HEARTS, SHE WILL ALWAYS, BE THERE.
YOU ARE THE PRETTIEST GIRL IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to Chan.. happy birthday to you! we love you Squirt!
As I sit here and think of another year gone by and how once again I will not be able to share your special birthday with you...It is still so hard to take in. As tomorrow arises,we will get up like any other day, go to church like any other Sunday, praise and worship and hear God's word, spend time with family and friends after church, and tomorrow night Mommy,Daddy,and baby Chase will make your birthday cake and Celebrate your life.....all of that once again WITHOUT YOU! It is unbearably hard to tackle each day and it's only by God's Grace that we can. We love you and miss you so much babydoll! Chase is still favoring you so much and he is so special to us! WE NEED YOU HERE!!!! YOU WOULD BE THE BEST BIG SISTER..YOU WOULD ABSOLUTELY EAT HIM UP AND LOVE HIM AND PLAY WITH HIM SO MUCH THAT IT WOULD GET ON HIS NERVES..I JUST KNOW IT..BECAUSE THAT IS HOW LOVING YOU ARE! I really dream of the day that I can sit and laugh at the two of you playing and laughing together and I cannot imagine a better happiness! Tommorrow I will make a wish for you as I blow out your candles(with Chase's help) and we will blow you a kiss like we do every day to Heaven! We cherish you and we desire your presence more everyday!!!!! Please show yourself off to us!!!!!! WE LOVE YOU! Happy Birthday Darling! XOXOXOXOXO- Mommy,Daddy, and Chase
Cotton Candy Clouds Angel Food Cake Candles Of Stars For Chandler I Bake Birthday's With JESUS Are Awesome I Know Your Heart Shines Around Us Where Ever We Go Happy Birthday Chandler
Waterbugs and Dragonflies / Becky Anderson
My name is Becky Anderson. I did not know Chandler but I recently became a member of the same Church that her parents attend and I found the link for this memorial on the church website. My heart goes out to the entire family. I was reading the story Candida wrote about how when they went to visit Chandler after she passed away, that a dragonfly greeted them everytime, faithfully, and it reminded me of this story I once read so I thought I would share it with the rest of you.....
Down below the surface of a quiet pond lived a little colony of water bugs. They were a happy colony, living far away from the sun. For many months they were very busy, scurrying over the soft mud on the bottom of the pond. They did notice that every once in a while one of their colony seemed to lose interest in going about with its friends. Clinging to the stem of a pond lily, it gradually moved out of sight and was seen no more. "Look!" said one of the water bugs to another, "One of our colony is climbing up the lily stalk. Where do you think she's going?" Up, up, up it slowly went... Even as they watched, the water bug disappeared from sight. Its friends waited and waited but it didn't return... "That's funny!" said one water bug to another... " Wasn't she happy here?" asked a second... "Where do you suppose she went?" wondered a third... No one had an answer. They were greatly puzzled. Finally one of the water bugs gathered its friends together. "I have an idea. The next one of us who climbs up the lily stalk must promise to come back and tell us where he or she went and why." "We promise" they said solemnly. One spring day not long after the very water bug who had suggested the plan found himself climbing up the lily stalk. Up, up, up he went. Before he knew what was happening, he had broken through the surface of the water and fallen into the broad and free lily pad above. When he awoke, he looked about with surprise. He couldn't believe what he saw. A startling change had come over his old body. His movement revealed four silver wings and a long tail. Even as he struggled, he felt an impulse to move his wings... The warmth of the sun soon dried the moisture from his new body. He moved his wings again and suddenly found himself above the water. He had become a dragonfly. Swooping and dipping in great curves, he flew through the air. He felt exhilarated in the new atmosphere. By and by the new dragonfly landed happily on a lily pad to rest. Then it was that he chanced to look below to the bottom of the pond. Why, he was right above his old friends, the water bugs! There they were scurrying around, just as he had been doing some time before. Then the dragonfly remembered the promise. without thinking, the dragonfly darted down. Suddenly he hit the surface of the water and bounced away. Now that he was a dragonfly, he could no longer go into the water... "I can't return!" he said in dismay. "At least I tried. But I can't keep my promise. Even if I could go back, not one of the water bugs would know me in my new body. I guess I'll just have to wait until they become dragonflies too. Then they'll understand what has happened to me, and where I went." And the dragonfly winged off happily into its wonderful new world of sun and air.. Close
just wanted you to know that i think about you all the time. i miss hearing your pretty little voice saying ''hi'' and runing to give us a hug and a kiss before church started.your smile use to bring me happeness everday when ever i feel sad i think of your smile.i have a baby sister she is always happy and smiling just like you use to.i wish you could have met her.one day in heaven you will meet all of us again.please watch over me my mommy and brother and my baby sister.oh and by the way tell Jesus and God we said hello.i love hearing your mommy sing.i can see you when your mommy sings.your daddy cares your picture in his pocket of his shirt.im taking you picture to camp with me hope you dont mind.
I LOVE YOU! / Mommy ..
HEY BABY! ANOTHER DAY..ANOTHER 4TH OF JULY...WE MISS YOU AND WE LOVE YOU! CHASE HAD A BUSY DAY IN THE SUN TODAY AND HE DID GREAT...HE SAW THE FIREWORKS FOR THE 1ST TIME TONITE...HE JUST LOOKED AT THEM IN AMAZEMENT AND DIDN'T MAKE A SOUND...THEN HE FELL ASLEEP ON DADDY'S SHOULDER..HE IS SO PRECIOUS AND WE MISS YOU SO MUCH! XOXO-MOMMY Close
Happy 4th of July Chan. I know it's been awhile since I have written. It is aways hard to come in and read the candles and the tributes. It is very difficult not to shed some tears as I read or as I write. Your brother and your cousins keep me hopping. Chase is so sweet. I only watch him on Mondays right now. He is getting used to be around all the noise and excitement alot better. He is a happy , laid back little guy. You would be so proud of him and he will be of you as he learns about you as he gets older. I got to hold him in church 2 Sundays ago. All your cousins were in Disneyworld having a grand old time, well except Bella and your brother Chase, who are a little young right now to undersand it all or at least get real excited about Mickey Mouse. Anyway, your Dad was ushering and so he was standing in the back. Chase kept looking back at him and smiling and laughing. Matter of fact, when your Dad is holding him , he reminds me of you. You would just look at everyone while praise and worship was going on. That is just what Chase does. Your mommy and daddy are so proud of him. I know they both miss you so much and would want you here with them so very, very, much. I think of you often. Your memories are still in my house. Some times I shed tears, smetimes smiles when I think of them and sometimes smiling tears at some of the cute things. Like when you would go to timeout and act like it was not big deal, just sit there with your hands on your knee and get that look , like , hey, I'll do my time and then break out of here. Eveytime I rock Savannah, yes , I still do at times. I had a break where I didn't but she is back asking. She is real sweet about it. I tell her she has to wait till I get Marlee, or Chase or Jeremy or all three , which I have done on reare occasions then I will rock her. By golly, you think she would fall asleep by then , no way .I always remember you bobbing your head up and smiling at us and singing with us. I would say lay down and you would and just get up again. It makes me think about how true it is when Uncle Jonathan said that Savannah lost her best friend. She really did. I can imagine all the mischevious things you two would be up to. Her sisters, Marlee and Bella , your cousins of course, are just wonderful as well. Marlee is so different from Savannah in some ways. I think she is going to have that dry sense of humor. She is a hoot. She makes sure she is top dog when it comes to Bella and Jeremy. You know that pecking order. Of couse Savannah knows she is the oldest and commands that. Bella, is so easy going. SHe is continually similing. When she is hungry or tired you know it. She is gettig around. Kind of crawling and scooching around. Her momma said she pulls herself up, I have not seen it yet. She has all her older cousins to watch and learn from. Then there is Garrett. I am sure he had a blast at Disneyworld. He alwys talked about Mickey Mouse and Goofy, who I think il is faorite. He is growing so big and looking and acting older. Time goes so quickly. He will soon be a big brother. I know he will do well with babies. He did with Bella and Jeremy. He loves to hug on them and kiss them. I love them all so much. I missed them when they were all gone for the week. It was good to see them the following Sunday. You Chandler , will always be missed. No one who knew you will ever forget you and no one wants to. You were a significant part of each of our lives . Send some hugs and kisses and lots of love to mommy and daddy. Let them feel your presence. I love you Chan. One day we will all see you . Have fun and I know you are enjoying heaven. That is what makes it all alot easier. You are having the best time ever , just sooner then the rest of us. That is our saving grace here on earth, knowing when love ones leave us, they are in the best of hands, JESUS"S hands. Love you,
U ARE MISSED ! / Aunt Gail (Great Aunt )
Chan, Mommy has such a hard time at Aunt Gail's last night when having dinner with TT and Nik Nik and the little ones. You were missed so very much and we know how you love it here. My heart breaks for your Mommy, Can you do me a great big favor, wrap your arms around her send her some extra love , the kind we can't give her, the kind only you can give here. I miss you darling. Time has not healed a thing, Do you think it will one day ? Do you think it will get better for us ? I hope so, its so hard. Everything we did tonight reflected you, we miss you so. All my Love Close
CHAN, DO YOU KNOW YOU HAD THE BEST MOM IN THE WORLD ? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH SHE LOVED YOUAND CONTINUES TO LOVE YOU ? SHE WAS SO PROTECTIVE OVER YOU, SHE READ AND PLAYED AND LOVED YOU LIKE NO OTHER. SHE ONCE WROTE ME NOTE OF INSTRUCTIONS WHEN I KEEP YOU, AS IF I WAS A NEW MOMMY HEE HEE, IT WAS SO FUNNY, WE LAUGH STILL OVER IT TODAY, SHE ALWAY MADE SURE YOU WERE SO TAKEN CARE OF . SHE MISSES YOU SO MUCH, I REALLY DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH, I DO...NO ONE UNDERSTANDS DEATH UNTIL THEY WALK IN THOSE SHOES. YOUR MOMMY STRUGGLES EVERYDAY WITH YOUR LOSS. SHE MISSES YOU SO SO SO MUCH. IF ANYONE IS READING THIS AND YOU HAVE A MINUTES OF EXTRA TIME SEND HER SOME EXTRA LOVE. (I WOULD BE SO VERY GRATFUL )SHE IS A WONDERFUL PERSON, WE'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY, WE JUST TRY TO GET TO THE NEXT DAY. TIME THEY SAY HEALS THINGS, WE HAVEN'T FOUND THAT TO BE TRUE YET. MY NIECE CANDIDA IS PRECIOUS, MY PRAYER FOR HER IS THE PAIN TO LIGHTEN EACH DAY, SOMEDAYS FOR ALL OF US ARE BETTER THAN OTHERS. BUT HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT WAHT THE PAIN MUST BE LIKE FOR A "MOTHER " ? PRAYER FOR HER. THERE IS NOTHING LIKE A MOTHERS LOVE. I KNOW THIS , MY MOTHER IS MY LIGHT , RAIN OR SHINE, I LOVE HER MORE THAN SHE KNOWS. I CAN'T IMAGINE THE LOSS OF A CHILD, I KNOW THE PAIN OF LOSSING CHAN FOR US WAS AND HAS BEEN UNBEARABLE BUT FOR A MOTHER , I KNOW IT MUST BE UNREAL. PLEASE GOD SEND CANDIDA SOME SPECIAL LOVE, HUGS, KISSES FOR ME. MY WISH FOR HER IS THAT HER DAY IS FILLED WITH .................................................................................... JOY,HOPE,FUN,PEACE,FAMILY,HUGS,WEALTH,KISSES,FLOWERS,BUTTERFLIES,SUNSHINE,HEALTH,PEACE,FREINDS AND MORE THAN ANYTHING THAT THE LAUGH TER YOU HEARD OF THE LITTLE GIRL IN WHICH IS CHANDLER SENDING HER LOVE , YOU HEAR AGAIN AND AGAIN SO IT CAN MAKE YOU SMILE AND A BEATUIFUL DRAGONFLY . SENDING YOU MY XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO ALL MY LOVE, DO YOU FEEL IT ? philippians 3 13-14 Aunt Gail
TO FEEL YOU WITH ME.. / Mom .. TO FEEL YOU WITH ME...
The days go on and on... and another day passes by.... I long to hear you call my name or sceam that screeching yell that you do so loudly!!! EEEHHHH!! I can hear you now! With that little smirk on your face,attitude, and laughing out loud! You just lit up my world! All I needed in my day was to see your face and feel your soft skin and love on your face..and brush my hands through your soft wavy beautiful blonde hair..you should still be here with me..this isn't fair....we should have never had to lose someone so precious to us and who was our "BREATH OF LIFE" in itself! Chan- I miss you so badly and it just gets so hard!!!! Sometimes like tonight it just feels like you should be here...I should be able to go to your toddler bed and see you in your princess gown fast asleep on your little pink pillow with your hair brushed back and your innocent face sleeping so peacefully...then you would wake to call my name "Mama" and say "Mik"(milk) and I would jump out of bed to get you some milk in your bottle and put you in bed with me(under my arm)skin to skin and you would stroke Mommy's hair over and over until you fell back asleep...I miss those times so much! As for Chase..he is sharing the same special time with me and Daddy in the mornings..he doesn't have his bottle and he doesn't play with Mommy's hair yet...but he does love to be close to us and we love it too! I just really miss you babydoll and GOD KNOWS I DO!!!!!!! Your cousins are all in Disney now..except Bella and Chase..still too young...and I know you would be having a BLAST with them this week...I know you are with them..but it isn't the same for Mommy when I can't enjoy it with you and them together! This is my time with my daughter..but for anyone who is reading this..I would like to share what my daughter did for me this past Thursday.. Wed. was June 20th and that was our last day with Chan 2 yrs.ago Thursday I had a massage scheduled to receive and was really needing to unwind and escape from all of my emotions and pain from this week and the memories it brings....If you have never lost a child...it is like you re-live the whole day over again no matter how hard you try--the whole day is still with you.. anyhow-I go for my massage and as I go to the restroom 1st..I notice a sign that states"Mother's are angels in disguise" and then I see a dragonfly in the restroom on a plaque...after we lost Chan, a green and black dragonfly came to visit us at the cemetery for the next 3 mos.FAITHFULLY! It sat on my husband's hand..it sat on my left hip..it sat beside me on the ground and I know it was telling me she was with us....every time..we felt her!! So..as I go into the massage room,lay down and receive my massage...as some of you know me...I LOVE MY MASSAGES and that is my time to LET GO OF ALL! As the massage was half way over...the oriental music that I had heard the whole time was continuing to play...as I was drifting in and out of deep sleep..I came to hear no more oriental music..but I heard a little girl laughing so loudly and so clear...she laughed for about 10 seconds so clearly to me...then all the sudden I heard the music again..I laid there,paused for a moment...and a gentle smile came across my face...I pondered to myself was that the music or was that for real? I just smiled because I knew it was Chandler's voice and she was so tickled and so happy...it was SO OBVIOUS! I just continued to receive the massage and drifted back off to sleep and at the end of my massage..I asked my therapist..Did you hear a little girl laughing or was that my imagination? She said yes,Candida, I heard it.It was in the music. As I began weeping she wept with me and I told her I felt like Chanlder was there with me and she confirmed she felt the same. Her spirit was so strong I felt like I could have touched it in that room! That is another example of how powerful God is and she had never heard that before in the music she said. Why would a little girl be laughing at the end of a song..in oriental music at that..God knew I was going to be there that day and used that to LET MY DAUGHTER BE WITH ME AND SHARE HER JOY IN HEAVEN AT THAT VERY MOMENT! Until you experience God in his fullness, you cannot understand just how AWESOME HE IS! THANK YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN LORD FOR LETTING ME HEAR HER VOICE AND FEEL HER PRESENCE SO STRONG! I JUST WANTED TO SOAK IT UP MORE AND STAY THERE ALL AFTERNOON...HOPING TO FEEL HER OR HEAR HER MORE AND MORE! For those of you who may not believe...you have to be open to feel God's presence in your life and be willing to let him in! His spirit will change your life COMPLETELY! Thank you Lord..for when times are SO HARD LIKE TONITE....you bring me out of the pain once again...I will try and get some sleep now.. "Chandler Rae..MOMMY LOVES YOU SO MUCH and I AM TELLING YOU NOW....YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME AND I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU FOR THAT! Continue to touch us all and help ease the pain we so deeply feel without you here to share this life with! I LOVE YOU BABYDOLL! Night Night! Sweet Dreams! love- MomClose
YOUR ARE MISSED / Aunt Gail (Great Aunt )
Chan, Isn't is funny how one day your here and the next day your gone ? Who would of ever thought we would have to live without you. I have a new concept of life this past couple of years. I value things more , i don't seat the small stuff anymore, i laugh more, i smile more, i play more, i kid around more, i dont allow myself to be sad very long at a time. i remember happy things, i play jokes , i send silly messages, that's all I can do here on this earth. YOU helped me remember how important it is to do these things, I miss you so, I miss everything so much. I love you and you will forever be in my heart, Who ever knew what 6/20 would bring us ? I am so glad I can't see what tomorrow brings. That's why it is so important to live for today. Help me ...Chan stay positive, fun, and smile at strangers in life. Remind me to be the one to go the extra mile each day for someone who is down and out. Continue to remind me to share 50 cent if I have one dollar. Thank you for the things you have taught me to rememeber . Continue to send me your love, you are so very missed . Wrap your loving arms around Mommy, Daddy, and Chase and then send the extra's to all of us XOXOXOXOXOXO Close
I was just thinking of you this past weekend. The neighbors put out a little pool that reminded me of the one you and your cousins Tyler and Trevor played in that last summer we were with you. I can still see you standing there in your sunglasses and bathing suit laughing with the boys. I remember thinking how much fun you would all have over the years when we visited. I just want you to know that we all miss you and love you. You will never be forgotten. I can't wait to see your little brother again. I know he'll always have your presence over him. We miss you and it hurts not seeing you each year. Until then,
Love you always,
Uncle Matt, Aunt Steph, Tyler, Trevor and your newest cousin here Hannah Close
I LOVE U CHAN / Eric Maready (Cousin)
I LOVE U CHAN! THANK YOU GOD FOR SHARING HER WITH US! WE WENT TO VISIT YOU LAST WEEK. I MISS U ALOT! THANK YOU FOR SHOWING US THAT THERE IS A REAL GOD. I WANT TO BE WITH YOU SO THAT WE CAN PLAY LEGOS AND BUILD THINGS. ONE WE WILL PLAY TOGETHER IN HEAVEN BESIDE JESUS. I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY, THANK YOU FOR BEING WITH ME AND SHOWING OUR FAMILY YOUR LOVE. MY MOMMY MISSES YOU AND LOVES YOU A LOT. CHAN YOU HAVE MADE A SPECIAL MARK ON MY HEART AND IN MY LIFE.
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Chandler Rae just want to let you know that I am very blessed to have you in our life. I know that we didn't see much of each other but it was great when we did see you. I know that you are having the time of your life in heaven with Jesus and all of our family that is with you now. Thank you for looking out of all of us here on earth. You have some super parents and I know that you are loved by them very much. Yes I look forward to the day that we will all be together again, it will be a wonderful day. Chandler you have touched & changed so much in my life. You are always in my prayers and in my heart. I will never forget you or stop praying for that day that we all get too HEAVEN. YES WE ARE BLESSED Love you Tammie
Hey Chan! It's TT! I can remember the first MOMENT I saw you, I had never saw a more perfect baby. You had the roundest face and those natural highlights God gave you! Your feet were sooo long and your fingers so chubby. Your mommy and daddy were so happy. Our whole family was soo happy. Alot of things have changed Chan as you know.
I remember the first time you stayed with Uncle Jon at Ashley Park Apts. He was so scared, yet so excited to babysit you. Remember the time when we took you and Savannah to have your pictures taken and you wouldn't quit pulling Savannah's bow out of her hair. What about the time we went to Raleigh and you were three mos. old. You must have cried the whole way there and back. Nik and I had never heard a baby cry that much. You couldn't stand to ride in that car seat. You wanted to be moving all the time. I remember the day your mommy and I had you and Nana, and your mommy would not leave you alone singing to you going down western blvd.; (I'll never forget it), I was like come on man, let her just look out the window for one minute. But, your mommy just kept singing to you. You had to know how to sing every song word for word; you didn't go one second without your mommy singing to you. Remember how much you loved the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus! They weren't your favorite people to sit with.
Chandler, I want you to know that I always said that when God made you he got our girls mixed up because you looked like me but BOY more than that did you ever act like me!! I love you Chandler Rae, and I thank God that he allowed ME to be your TT! Your voice will always be in head of how you called my name TAETAE! And, how you would always catch and say the last word in the songs you would learn. (In Jesus loves me, you would always say the me) I'll never forget how you would run up to your mommy if you couldn't get your way with something, and I don't blame you; considering she is the one that told EVERYONE "Chan never cries" Nik Nik and I still pick on her about that. I miss you soooo much Chan, and can't wait till the day that your TAETAE can polish you fingernails and toenails, put you lipgloss on, and brush your long,beautiful,curly, blonde hair. I can see you now I love you Chan! AND WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN!! Thank you Jesus, our LORD and SAVIOR!!Good night Chan! I see the moon and the moon sees me, God bless the moon and God Bless Me!I see Chan and Chan sees me, God Bless Chan, and God Bless Me. Love, TT
My Hero / Shirley Burke (church family )
Chandler it was 2 yrs. ago on Father's Day that you ran up to me when I was greeting and told me all about the purple shirt you bought Daddy. There will never be a day that we don't see purple and think of your bright and shining face. Send extra hugs to Mommy and Daddy today. They need them really badly today. Give my babies in Heaven kisses and tell them that their Mommy will see them someday soon too... Sweetie, you will never be forgotten.. WE ARE BLESSED to have known you.. Close
MY BABY GIRL! / Mom .. Hey Babydoll! I want to write to you now,but it is incredibly hard to even think about so I will do my best. June 20th will always be the longest day of my life...it seems as I wake in the morning to tackle the day,it just takes so long to get through. I try to stay so busy and occupy myself by doing whatever I can to make the day go faster and not even think about what my day was like 2 years ago. It feels like yesterday but then it feels like I have been without you forever. Last night,Daddy,Chase,and I walked outside and sat down and enjoyed the cool breeze you were sending us. As we looked up at the moon, Daddy talked to Chase and all I could do was wipe my tears. He told Chase about the star named after you and me and told Chase he had to get a star to be named after your baby brother. Today we tried to get out of town, but as you know, there is no escaping the pain. No matter where we go. Let's be honest..Sometimes I just get so tired of living this life and trying to have such strong faith and I just cannot wait to experience heaven with you and all of our family there having such a BEAUTIFUL AND MARVELOUS time with Jesus and YOU! I know the time is near...I CAN FEEL IT!!! Daddy and I have been believing God for ALOT and I know God's word will not come back void! But....that doesn't and will not ever BRING YOU BACK TO US! SO, IF THAT CANNOT HAPPEN...I AM READY TO BE WITH YOU! I AM SOOOO READY TO HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS AND NEVER LET GO! I AM SO SORRY FOR NOT PROTECTING YOU! I KNOW GOD HAS HIS PURPOSE..I KNOW I COULDN'T PROTECT YOU ALL THE DAYS OF YOUR LIFE...BUT JUST SO THAT YOU KNOW...I AM SORRY. I WISH SO MANY TIMES IT WOULD'VE BEEN ME. I WISH YOU COULD BE WITH CHASE AND DADDY AND SHARE THE LOVE WITH THEM THAT WE SEE EVERYDAY. IT IS NOT FAIR EVER THAT YOU AND WE ARE ROBBED OF THAT...THAT IS WHY I CANNOT WAIT TO BE WITH YOU IN HEAVEN..SO WE CAN FINALLY SHARE THIS LOVE WE ALL HAVE AND BE "ONE" AND BE "COMPLETE"! God is an awesome God. He answered my "Main Prayer" I prayed for Chase to remind me so much of you by his looks...and HE IS TOTALLY YOU IN A BOY'S BODY! Thank you again and again God for that answered prayer. It keeps me going everyday when he smiles at me and I see you in him! He is 6 mos.old today and he has been giving your "looks" lately with those eyebrows... :) He is so funny! Today, he talked and babbled out loud so much that me and Daddy just laughed. He has a loud mouth! Wonder where he gets that from? He wants to be heard...center of attention, of course...got that honest,huh? I miss you so bad...it is so draining...Daddy and I just sit around in quiet at times..just look at each other..and we admit that it is so draining...emotions held in or even let out are so draining! But, it is part of the healing and we must move forward..in some way...I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND CHASE SENDS HIS LOVE! I know you see him look at your picture on the wall...and he SMILES! He has been doing that for the past 2 mos! HE LOVES YOU AND FEELS YOU..I KNOW IT! He is learning how to say Chan Chan...I only wish it could be his first words..but it won't take him long..FOR NOW DARLIN' GOOD NIGHT AND I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH! You are "the prettiest girl in the whole wide world!" ALL MY LOVE FOREVER-MomClose
Good morning Chan! I know you are having such a good time in heaven looking down at all the great things going on with everyone! With The Sanctuary's new church, with all your cousins! We miss you every day Chandler Rae. To be honest with you, this has not been an easy week! The thing is Chan, I wasn't a very good cousin to you. I wasn't around that often but when I was around your smiling face I felt comfort! I felt a peace all around you! You have done so much for me and my family! You make us realize how important every waking moment should be! It was funny, on Easter Sunday I was having a hard time with missing you. And getting dressed for church was becoming impossible! So I just sat down in the middle of the floor and told you, Chandler since you are already here, could you please help me with my hair??? And sure enough you must have done a good job because after church your mama and your aunt TT said they loved it like that! I just laughed! I will never forget that, so thank you! This is a day that satan would love to get us down but through your strength and Jesus' strength we will overcome and realize that "We Are Blessed" I love you baby girl!! Love Carla
I love you / Uncle Jon
Hey Chan Chan, Two years ago at this very moment, I dropped Savannah off at Mrs. Roses. I knew, I feel by God, that I should take you and Savannah to the park for a little while. I was busy and didn't. That would have been the last time I could have played with you on this earth. I will never forget the big hug you gave me when I left Mrs. Rose's that day. You wanted Uncle Jon to hold you and not let you go. I'm sorry I didn't take you to the park. You brought so much happiness to everyone. We will forever love you. Savannah talks about you all the time. She loves you so much. You remind me so much of Marlee. Your body shape, the way your attitudes are, everything. I still am proud that I was the first person ever to babysit you. You screamed for two hours, but we both made it through. The way I got you to stop screaming was to take you outside to look at the clouds. Well, I just wanted to tell you that i love you and miss you. I regret not making it to the hospital sooner. Maybe something would have turned out different, but maybe not. I'll never know. But I'm sorry I got there to late. One day, I promise you, I will take you and Savannah to a park in Heaven, and you two can play as long as you want. Till I see you again face to face know that I see Chan Chan in my heart every second of every day. I love you and remember, YOU ARE BLESSED! Uncle Jon Close
Squirt, Tommorrow will be two years without you here with mommy and me. The pain has not gotten any better, but worse. You were my day brightener, waking us up by shaking the crib until we came and got you, smiling and laughing. You were my night maker, always standing in the window waiting for me to park the truck, smiling and calling da-da. There isn't a more beautiful girl in the whole wide world than you! We may not have had a lot, but we had you and that was enough! Life is hard without you Chan. Your baby brother has brought unspeakable joy to mommy and me, but it doesnt' replace you and the feelings you gave us. Thank you for helping watch over Chase these first six months. Tell Jesus thank you too. I tell him every day. Please continue to watch over our family, we will get there to see you one day. I pray it won't be long. Until then, know that I love you and miss you. I will always remember your beautiful smile, beautiful hair, beautiful face, the way you walked, the way you talked, the way you called 8ball's name, the way you slept, the way you ate, the way you played, the way you sang, but most of all, I will remember the mark you left on the people who knew you. You are not forgotten and never will be!!! Love, Daddy
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What about the time we went to Raleigh and you were three mos. old. You must have cried the whole way there and back. Nik and I had never heard a baby cry that much. You couldn't stand to ride in that car seat. You wanted to be moving all the time. I remember the day your mommy and I had you and Nana, and your mommy would not leave you alone singing to you going down western blvd.; (I'll never forget it), I was like come on man, let her just look out the window for one minute. But, your mommy just kept singing to you. You had to know how to sing every song word for word; you didn't go one second without your mommy singing to you.
Remember how much you loved the Easter Bunny and Santa Claus! They weren't your favorite people to sit with.
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